The reflection is not lost on me.
I am adopted. And this journey amplifies my adoption in resounding ways. It knocks the wind out of me. I can’t for a moment think of this journey without thinking of my Father and all that He did to adopt me. His fingerprints are all over my life. He changed my trajectory. So much so that His fingerprints are evident in this journey. I see my Father at work. I hear Him saying trust, trust, trust. I hear Him telling me to lay it all at His feet and rest in His arms. Oh how peaceful it is when I rest in His arms. When I lay it all at His feet. He quiets the storm raging within me. The questions, the fear of the unknown, the turmoil of the waiting.
I know it would be calmer to hold His hand and walk upon the waves with Him. But I keep looking down, taking my eyes off of Him, and start sinking. And I start drowning.
Or I think I’m drowning. Until I look up at Him again and realize He is holding my hand still. He is not going to let me sink. He is going to get me back into the boat. And He will ride the waves with me. And when the time comes, the waves will still. And this will all make sense. Because when my Father speaks, the wind and the waves obey. The sea parts. The path becomes straight.
He adopted me. I was not too far. And the songs that mean the most to me these days are not only the ones that are thanksgivings and praises for all my Father has done for me. They are also the songs that while I sing them in Thanksgiving and Praise, I prayerfully lift them for our child. I want my child to come home. But it means nothing if I don’t long for my child to know Christ. I want my child to be adopted here on this earth…and be an orphan no more. But more than that, I long for my Father to also adopt my children. I say come as you are. But it means more when my Father says it. I want my Father to be the One to make my child an orphan no more. To call my child His own.
The reflection is not lost on me.
“Come out of sadness from wherever you’ve been. Come broken hearted; let rescue begin.
Come find your mercy; O sinner come kneel. Earth has no sorrow that Heaven can’t heal.
Lay down your burdens. Lay down your shame.
All who are broken, lift up your face.
O wanderer come home! You’re not too far.
So lay down your hurt, lay down your heart, come as you are.
There’s hope for the hopeless and all those who’ve strayed
Come sit at the table; come taste the grace!
There’s rest for the weary, rest that endures
Earth has no sorrow that Heaven can’t cure.
There’s joy for the morning. O sinner, be still.
Earth has no sorrow that Heaven can’t heal.”
~Crowder